Month #3 – Hot flashes are here!

Hot flashes are not as bad as people say they are.   So you get a little hot.. big freaking deal!  I usually get them in the morning while I’m still in bed.

My sex drive is at an all time low.   I couldn’t turn my husband down once again, so this morning I attempted to get in the mood.  Intercourse is still VERY painful.  Not only because of the vaginal dryness but because the endo is still very much inflamed.   I don’t know what to do, Lupron doesn’t seem to be working.

Spotting…. for two days now I’ve been spotting.   I’m not sure what that means.  I’ll call the Dr. this Monday and ask him about it.

Insomnia, Low libido and hot flashes… ugh

Ok, so last night was the worst ever… it still wasn’t so bad, but I definitely can tell that is is out of my normal zone.  Yesterday I had a big dinner, rich dessert and a couple of drinks… so I’m not sure if that had anything do with my insomnia, but I kept waking up in the middle of the night.  Normally, if I drink I sleep like a rock, but not last night.  I woke up sweating too.

Now as far as the low libido is concerned… I have never felt so uninterested!  My husband has tried everything and I’m just not that interested.  That is unheard of!  I’m usually the insatiable one. When we did have intercourse, it hurt.  Not as bad as the previous time though.

I suspect I ovulated this month… I’m not supposed to, but I think I did.  TMI alert!  My mucus discharge was the same as when I ovulate normally which is what makes me suspect it happened this month.   I’m not sure what that means…

This week I go in for shot #3.  Although it has not been too bad, I’m not looking forward to it.

The symptoms are starting

So, I started getting some hot flashes early in the morning. I’ll be in bed and get extremely hot.  I’ll uncover myself and not even 2 minutes later it goes away and I’m cold again.

I also started to spot today.  I don’t know what that means, but I hope it doesn’t continue too long.  Today I also felt tired all day, and around 5pm I just had to lie down and take a nap.

I guess I should brace myself… cause it’s bound to get worse. Or so I’m told.

Shot #2

I had shot #2 two days ago. It wasn’t too bad, I did get the weird taste in my mouth right after the shot and did feel a little dizzy for about a minute or so afterwards.

I did have a chance to talk to my doctor and he said that it takes about 2-3 months for the Lupron to truly take effect and successfully suppress the estrogen in my body. He says that I can expect to start feeling more side effects as the weeks go by (oh no!), but on the same token, I should start to feel less pain.  He’s disappointed that my insurance did not approve Femara.  He wanted to use this in conjunction with the Lupron because it suppresses the estrogen even further.

He informed me that if my husband and I want to go ahead with artificial insemination, we should do it right after I get my first period after the lupron treatments in order to have the best chances.  So I asked again about the pain.  I asked him what would happen if the Lupron treatment didn’t help with the pain after the 6 months… He said that is a possibility because it doesn’t work for everyone, and if that is the case we may have to do another Laparoscopy and go deeper and remove more tissue than the last Lap.  OH NO!  I don’t want to go through surgery again.

I just don’t catch a break. First my husband is infertile.   Now, I may be facing the same prognosis. I don’t think I can take that. Anyway, I’m really hoping this treatment will work.  I’ll take all the side effects in the world if it works.  Please God… Let it work.

So far, no serious side effects.  The constipation has been manageable. I’ve been making it a point to drink more water and eat more fruits and vegetables.

Life is good.

The sun is shining, flowers are starting to bloom and birds are chirping.  I love the spring…. it is my favorite time of the year. As far as my treatment goes, I’m fast approaching the day for my next shot. I’m anxious to discuss my side effects with my doctor and see what he has to say.

I thought I was supposed to have mood swings and depression during lupron.  So far I have none of that.  In fact, thinks seem happier lately.  For the last two weeks or so I haven’t felt depressed at all.  Things are good.

As far as my symptoms are concerned. I’m still all stopped up.  I’m taking a laxative pill a day and yet it hasn’t been helping too much.  Last night I looked like I was 3 or 4 months pregnant I was so bloated.  Hopefully it will get better soon.

Love the spring!

No so bad this time

So we tried again.  This time it still hurt around my cervix, but not as much as the last time.  The constipation on the other hand is at it’s all time worst.  It is to bad my entire abdomen is sore.  I’ve taken some laxatives to see if it’ll help, but this is quite painful.

Still no hot flashes and/or night sweats… I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I continue to not have those symptoms.

Sex after Lupron Shot….

Yesterday was the first time my husband and I were intimate since the shot… Yes it was a long time… Anyway…. It hurt.  It hurt bad. I would have thought that having been on Lupron I would have a less painful experience, but I didn’t.  I’m not sure if the lupron is helping at all. I’m concerned.

Why is it hurting so bad? It is like I’m being stabbed from within every time he goes deep.  Some positions are better than others, but it is very painful especially if I’m on the bottom during missionary… I just don’t get it.  I thought it was supposed to help me.

It has been slightly over two weeks since my shot, and it has not helped one bit. I guess when I go in for shot number 2 I’ll ask my doctor about my pain and discuss it further.  In the mean time I continue in pain….

Our sex life hasn’t been the same since we found out my husband is azoospermic (no sperm in his ejaculate).  Mostly because he’s been feeling like he’s less than a man due to his condition.  It has been well over one year since the diagnosis and we’ve learned to deal with the fate that we’ll never have a biological child by him.  Our sex life was slowly getting better when I started feeling pain, which prompted me to go see a doctor.  But now the pain is worse even after my laparoscopy, which supposedly was successful.  I’m having a hard time believing it though.

We don’t need any more stress on our marriage and I need our sex life to go back to normal.  I couldn’t help but cry about it yesterday. I just want my life to be normal again.

Week 2 – Very few side effects…

So I’m yet to feel many side effects… I noticed a little difficulty urinating and have also been a bit constipated and a little bloated. So far it hasn’t been too bad.  I haven’t felt any hot flashes yet.

I’m starting to think that all of the reviews online are only horrible because people who don’t have issues don’t bother writing about it. Maybe it is still early… so I’ll keep posting updates.

Day 5 – Feeling bloated… and gassy

For the past 3 days or so I’ve been feeling very bloated and gassy…. First I thought it wasn’t related to the lupron shot, but now I’m starting to think it is because it won’t go away.

I’m not a heavy person.  I’m 5’5″ 145lbs, I guess I’m a little overweight, but I carry a lot of my weight on my stomach.  This has only been for the past 5 yrs or so, which makes me wonder if it is not related to my endometriosis.  Within the last few days, however, it seems as if my gut is puffed out even more than usual… and I’m farting like a demon!  Ha ha…  My poor husband is getting gassed out.

So I guess this is my first real side-effect to lupron… bloating and gas.

Day 4 – Trucking along…

So, the anticipation for side effects has been worse than they needed to be… so far anyway. The only thing I have noticed so far is that I just don’t want to get out of bed in the morning… but then again I’ve always had issues with that… I hate mornings.  It does feel slightly worse since the shot, but it could be all in my head.

Yesterday I did walk around the mall and felt extra hot a couple of times… but then again it was hot at the mall and I was briskly walking or trying on clothes… so I’m not sure if they were hot flashes or not… I would think hot flashes are worse than what I felt.

Anyway, so far so good.  I’m starting to wonder what the fuss is all about.